In her book Searching for Sunday, Rachel Held Evans lays out her significant struggle with faith and doubt and the twisting spiritual path she has followed so far and is continuing to follow.
Many of the things she notes in this book I don’t agree with. But to be honest — I don’t have a super great defense for my own position. Reading her book reminds me of a break-up with a former girl friend.
She was not so spiritual — I was hyper conservative and cockily sure of myself spiritually. She sent me a tape of her singing a song as part of the breakup. I really don’t remember the song other than one line that summed it up.
You’ve better change your mind, friend — or learn how to lie
Since that early relationship I have moved on — in many ways. However there is still a question that still haunts me from that event. Have I merely learned how to lie? Or is my position and my theology based on truth? Have I simply adopted the “easy” position or have I really thought it through?
Rachel’s book raises questions that some feel have definite answers. Her and I would at least agree that the simple answers may not be so simple.
What I appreciate most is not so much the challenging question as the place Ms. Evans seems to landing with her doubts and concerns…..
Grace covers a lot.
…the truth is, the church doesn’t offer a cure. It doesn’t offer a quick fix. The church offers death and resurrection. The church offers the messy, inconvenient, gut-wrenching, never-ending work of healing and reconciliation. The church offers grace.
I’m not sure my answers to many questions being raised in the church today are totally solid. I need to think them through and ask some questions.
Maybe you too find yourself wondering in the middle of a service: Is this really true? If so — don’t panic. Even the preacher has those thoughts at time. Maybe even as he is speaking!
Church and theology can be messy and inconvenient. But it is also healing and reconciling if we let it be so.
Grace covers a lot!